Blog, Depression, Donations, Help, Suicide

A Suicide Loss: Please Help this Family who is now left Gathering Pieces of their Broken Family

I would like to take a moment and share a loss with you all. Suicide is 100% preventable. Colette leaves behind a daughter (with whom I now sympathize) and a grieving husband. They will have countless questions for years to come. Please help if your heart guides you to do so. Any amount is greatly appreciated.

Colette Hughes left this material plane and died suddenly at her own hand on Monday 7th July 2014 at 4.30pm. Colette was a gorgeous, wonderful and amazing human being she was; a pure expression of womanhood, funny, warmhearted and utterly adored by all who knew her. She was a true force of goodness, a brilliant teacher and role model.

She was also the most beautiful, sensual, graceful and charming Egyptian Dance performer of her generation. Check out her website:

If anyone would like to help we would be very grateful for any contributions, however small, towards the immediate costs we are faced with and to help us get through the massive life transition ahead of us. The simplest way is via Our registered paypal address is

Please hold a memory of the real Colette in heart and mind, bless her with your prayers of peace, and please let’s all help her on her way.

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What is the End?

We are all in a state of wonder about the “end” of our lives. We can all claim we know but we are all still seeking the truth. What is eternity after death? What is hell? What is Heaven? What if we are all seeking something that is nothing more than a version of what we are currently in? I know that I will not know until my time arrives, but wondering will never stop.

I had a thought the other day. It was a fleeting thought but it left me with a funny impression afterward. What if our afterlife is simply our lives repeating over? Perhaps the end is merely the beginning and our lives repeat in varying forms. If you die and you have been a moral person you are given options to have an easier life filled with happiness. Perhaps our versions of heaven are our lives lived with the ones we love. Maybe those relationships that we once missed out on are fully achieved and realized. Maybe the life-long dream of being able to do what makes you happy is something you can find in your Heaven.

Perhaps the trials of our lives are trials to test us and determine what our next version of our life will be. I know this is a testy subject. People have their religious beliefs and those are one of the FIRE topics that we are supposed to steer clear of, but what if? Just consider it for one second. What if YOU are who determines events in your own life? Can you imagine it? You know those times that you have wanted someone to blame for the troubles in your life? The times you have been at odds with your own suffering. What if it was you who had set you on your own path?

Is it then feasible to consider that perhaps you can also undo future pains for yourself? Can you use morality and goodness to find a happier you somewhere down your own timeline? Can you learn and provide yourself with a brighter timeline? Can you also choose poorly and design a life of loss?

Life is full of possibilities. You hear this all the time. It can be hard to hear when you are down, when you are struggling, when you are questioning your position. This is a thinking post. This is a post to put your own power in perspective.

You have power over your life. You can control certain aspects of your own life. Perhaps our deaths are not us starting over. God may be waiting to walk hand in hand with us at the end. We all have our beliefs. The point is that we also have power over ourselves. Our outlooks are only limited by what we allow our eyes to see. We can open our eyes to the real problems and we can use our hearts to achieve solutions.

Good night everyone.