What is the purpose? What is my purpose? In order to find happiness one needs to be open to happiness. In order to be open one needs to fully realize their potential and the best of themselves. On the road to Self-Actualization (defined in the dictionary as the achievement of one’s full potential through creativity, independence, spontaneity, and a grasp of the real world) a person needs to be fully aware of themselves. We need to be able to admit to our abilities and disabilities in order to fully understand who we are as a person.
Many people are aware of their strengths but there are just as many who are in denial of their “weaknesses”. We tend to leave our less than flattering characteristics locked away so that others can only see the best of us. By doing this we hide from ourselves as well. In order to be able to connect and achieve peace with who we are we need to realize that all people are flawed. All people have negatives. The beauty of becoming Self-Actualized means that you are able to embrace your flaws and by doing so you can move beyond them into a happier and more capable you. There are many versions to us all and being Self-Actualized means being the best possible version of you that there is.
One of the first steps in the process is to list all of your character traits. This includes both the positive and the negative. I am ever aware that I am a fallible person and I am also trying to improve daily. Some days are easier than others but I have hope that I can reach the best me possible. I took the time to write down some of my own characteristics and I hope that you too will find these as motivations to find yourself. No one can make anyone happy. The only person that can do that is ourselves. Good luck on your own journey I hope to see you realize your true power and beauty one day.
I am a difficult person. I get annoyed by others relatively easily. I am stressed out more than I will ever understand. I don’t forget things easily. I live in my memories at times. I have an attitude. I don’t open my heart completely to anyone other than my children because I know what heartbreak can do to me. I want to prove to the world that I am capable. Sometimes I feel like no one sees my worth. I am a depressive person. It doesn’t take much to make me depressed. I avoid reality by watching television and ignoring the problems that I sometimes need to deal with. I can be moody. I can be irritable. I can be cold as a partner. I am judgmental in the worst of ways. I am judgmental of everyone and of myself. I am impatient. I can be unhappy too often. I am not an easy person all the time and I never will be. I know that I am not perfect but I still strive to be a perfectionist. I am my worst enemy and my harshest critic. I don’t trust anyone. I can be hate-filled for things that happened long ago and I don’t know how to ever completely be rid of it. I can be envious. I can be narrow-sighted when I am upset. My mind is so full and it jumps from idea to idea. Sometimes I know that others look at that as though I don’t finish anything. I can get crazy ideas and they seem like they come from nowhere but in reality I think. I think all the time. I think about everything. I overanalyze and I exaggerate things and scenarios making them worse than they really are. I obsess over small details until I worry myself to death. I have let others walk all over me far too often than I like to admit. I have also let others hold me back. I can be naive about people when I hope that they will change even though I know they won’t. I can be unforgiving. I can be lonely. I can resent people for years and years. In some ways I don’t give a fuck. I am a flawed woman. I am human.
I can enjoy the simple things though. Flowers make me happy. Playing in the dirt makes me happy. Getting kisses from my kids makes me happy. When I am happy my chest is full of warmth and there is no better feeling than that. I take pride in the work I do and I know that I can do well when I try. I can have an abundance of confidence when I want to and I like to show off without being cocky when I know that I am good at something. I am smart. I can figure things out very quickly and once I do I can excel at them. I can build people up. I can see the good in people and I can help them reach their potential when I want to. I can see opportunities and I can see chances. I have a vivid imagination and I am intelligent enough to use it to open doors for myself. I am a strong person. I have overcome more than most and I did it without anyone helping me. I can be a great friend to those I see as friends. I want to help people. I want to reach out and show kindness to those who desperately need it. I can be forgiving. I can let things go that I probably never should have. I am a good mother. I love my children and I will never intentionally hurt them. I can be sweet and spontaneous. I can be thoughtful. I can be warm and understanding. I am open-minded. I am capable. I am beautiful when I believe I am. I am always on time when I am in control of the situation. I am capable of loving in the purest of ways. I have a great smile and I have a huge heart. I see things differently and I am able to express it in a way so that others can stand in my shoes. I am an overachiever. I can have a magnetic personality.
I know who I am. I know my flaws. I know my weaknesses. I also know my strengths. I am a person. I am working on being better than who I was yesterday. I want the Susie of Tomorrow to be better than the Susie of Today.